Adoption

For the past 3 weeks R and I have been attending a group called Adoption Discovery. You can check it out at adoptiondiscovery.org. It is a non-profit Christian organization that equips you throughout the entire adoption process. We meet with five other couples. We will remain a community group for a life time; I hope. The group is free and has been a total God-send since we just started this process.

Why are we adopting? Our journey for a family started three years ago. R and I had been married for 9 years and WE decided it was finally time to start having kids. Boy were we wrong;it took trying for a year without assistance and one month on clomid before I finally got pregnant. We were so excited but I was overly cautious I only told family and didn't want to go public for awhile. At week 10 I had a miscarriage. It was discovered to be a tubal pregnancy. I questioned why God could let this happen. Why let us be so excited to only be left so devastated with the miscarriage. At first I wished I had never experienced pregnancy. However through time and lots of prayer I am so THANKFUL this is part of my journey. Exactly a year later I was able to minister to a friend that went through a miscarriage. It's hard to talk to other people who haven't been through something this personal. Fast Forward 2 years and we are starting the adoption process. I never considered adoption until two months ago. I have for the first time felt God change the desires of my heart and make them His desires for me. I started a bible study in January by Priscilla Shirer called "Discerning the Voice of God"; what an impact this has had on me. I realized through this study I hadn't been seeking God I had been seeking my own plan and desires. I am a testimony to seeking God; HE will show Up;SO get ready. Also being obedient is worth the cost. If I hadn't gone through our infertility these last 3 years I would have never considered that child that God will grow in our hearts. I would have never realized God's timing and planning is so much better than any plan I had 3 years ago. I would still be wondering why isn't God blessing me with children? I have peace everyday knowing HE wants better for me than I could ever imagine. He is teaching me to be flexible; I'm a bit of a planner and control-freak. It's been so amazing to let go and let God.

Have a great weekend:)

Les